What matters supremely, therefore, is not, in the last analysis, the fact that I know God, but the larger fact which underlies it- the fact that He knows me. I am graven on the palms of His hands. I am never out of His mind. All my knowledge of Him depends on His sustained initiative in knowing me. I know Him, because He first knew me, and continues to know me. He knows me as a friend, one who loves me, and there is no moment when His eye is off me, or His attention distracted from me, and no moment therefore, when His care falters.
This is momentous knowledge. There is unspeakable comfort- the sort of comfort that energizes, be it said, not enervates- in knowing that God is constantly taking knowledge of me in love, and watching over me for my good. There is tremendous relief in knowing that His love to me is utterly realistic, based at every point on prior knowledge of the worst about me, so that no discovery now can disillusion him about me, in the way I am so often disillusioned about myself, and quench His determination to bless me. There is, certainly, great cause for humility in the thought that He sees all the twisted things about me that my fellow-men do not see (and am I glad!), and that He sees more corruption in me than that which I see in myself (which in all conscience, is enough).
There is, however, equally great incentive to worship and love God in the thought that, for some unfathomable reason, He wants me as His friend, and desires to be my friend, and has given His Son to die for me in order to realize this purpose.
~Packer, Knowing God
So… WHY ON EARTH do I fear MAN?!?
WHY is what MAN thinks of me so blasted important?!?
God is SO GOOD and SO INVOLVED… Knowing the raging in my heart… the fight… the DISTRACTING CARE… and He reminds me of a fun little morsel! GOD is in this relationship for the long haul! He bases the relationship on HIS faithfulness and goodness… not mine! He KNOWS what He’s getting into and He’s not balking!
I get to rest in his pursuit and provision for me!
I read that “Real faith does not come from having your act together, never making any mistakes or wrong choices. Rather, real faith is lived within the context of being a deeply flawed person.” I don’t know anyone more flawed than myself. I’m a bit dumbfounded by my fiercely faithful God who keeps this lopsided covenant!
Anyhoo… just wanted to share some juicy stuff! I’m pumped, reveling in the undeserved goodness of my God to me. Considering my background of abandonment and my unbelievable desire to please PEOPLE, this is all very FREEING to remember! I have such confidence in God, who knows all of the crud and knowing everything would still rather die than live without me!
I need to grab my munchkins and have a Psalm 150 kind of day!
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